Tue, 28th December 2010, 10:21pm
HI, after years of alcohol abuse and neglect of my relationship, my wife and i separated 18 months ago.
recently i stopped drinking and went to a doctor as i tried to win back my wife.
i was referred to a counsellor who on my first visit told me i have probably been depressed most of my life. i am 39 years old.
my wife is in love with someone else.
i have been crying everyday for the last month, the heartache and pain are at times unbearable.
here is a song i wrote of the cost of my depression and alcohol abuse.
The Long Stagger Home
It seemed cheap at the time, but now it's cost me the lot, you see i've lost all the good things, things i'd already got
Things you lose forever, and never see again, Things you're not supposed to lose till the end
So many times, i've embarrased myself, in so many ways, i damaged our health
1's too many, 20's not enough, waking up so often feeling so rough
chorus It's cost me my wife and it's cost me my life, it'll soon cost my mind if i dont decline
It's cost me so much time, in a cloudy mind, it's cost me my wife & it's cost me my life
Insulting people, without even trying, Offending friends, look now who's crying
The bar's now closed and I'm sat here alone, clearing my head for the long, stagger home
I know it tore you apart too, it's not just the drinker
With a bottle in hand I'm not much of a thinker
Loud, obnoxious, nauseous spinning head, Waking up alone and feeling, so dead
Cant believe my ignorance to the pain I was causing you, now it's all coming back, karma times 2
cause at night you dont come home so I'm sat here alone, Im begging now darling please,come home
See I've driven my wife into the arms of another, it's too late now though I still love her
So I sit here each night, crying alone, hoping I can make the long stagger home
It's cost me my wife..........