Fri, 30th December 2011, 3:08pm - updated - Fri, 30th December 2011, 3:23pm
Gave up 27 years ago. It is a gem in my self-worth cabinet. When I stuff up, I can say to myself: "At least I gave up smoking!" and I actually feel a joy in my core. After all these years!
I'm not even sure I gave up. It felt like I took an opportunity that 'came up':
Let's see...for say the final two years, I kept feeling stupid smoking, but could not use will power To Stop as that never works for me; it only multiplies the desire into a compulsion.
I did manage to get it down to 1-2 cigs a day, but never none.
Like a blind man looking for a hole in a wall, I stayed with the intention, frustrated that I always had to smoke 1 cig a day. (But, let's face it, down from 15/day, that is in fact a significant health benefit right there. Never, never give away the dream of not smoking. Failure or lapsing can feel bad but in the next two minutes you can be back on the bike, once again on the trail toward the dream.)
After a bad chest infection, a point of low desire came up mentally, like a portal: "I could take it or leave it, right here, right now.." .
I recognised that if I went through with it, that I would cross a line and the DESIRE to be smoking would be gone.
I would say it was like crossing a border where your Old Friend cannot go. You realise your Smoking is like a Friend that has been with you through thick and thin. Can you let go of him? Forever?
This I think is a reason why some people do not respond to programs and replacements that seem to work for others. They do not at heart want them to work, as they sense they would have to let go of something dear to them.
Ask yourself the Question: "What if it worked?"
"If, right now, I was offered the genie-wish to be like a person who had no desire to smoke, would I take it with both hands?"
If you get something other than "Hellyeah!!", any 'yes-but-I...' 'It's not that simple' or other squirming, you may know something about why things that work for others do not work for you. You may not want them to work.